Things haven't been too well for me... I was kicked out of school because we couldn't pay for tuition and I have NO luck whatsoever with finding work, I don't even have decent pants to look for work. My brother has gotten much more WORSE with his addiction; without his fix he's agitated, violent and volatile. There is no brain inside anymore-its like its a 15 year old in a 30 year old body. All he does is sit on his bum and smoke, eat and complain. Maman and I cannot cope with him anymore but we can't help him when he is 30 now. Father is just like his father with his brother; too stubborn and blind to what happens at home when he is not here. No one really knows how unhappy I am here and I can't really discuss it with my 'family'. The only person who makes me smile now is my beloved Holly.
I am so sick of it here that I looked up colleges where I can breathe and be myself at. Since I want to be a photojournalist the closest one I know is at Duluth and it is LGBTQ friendly!! However I a nervous about wanting to go there. The people I live with may not be family material but if I am 8 hours away I need a support system close by. I don't know anyone in Duluth...
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